A written haze, an awkward dream, am I what I seem?
Lazy sundays don't compare to our secret fanfare.

~ a written haze ~
Date: 2012-02-03 01:21
Subject: Masterlist; QaF 2009
Security: Public
Tags:!masterlist, !writing

[info]in_ahaze 's Queer as Folk fanfiction

2009 Masterlist


Four times (+ bonus) Justin heard ‘Save the last dance for me’. complete 15th September 2009 Only on LJ
Life lessons complete 2nd October 2009 Only on IJ
Imagine this complete 8th October Only on IJ
Of mornings and nights, and simple I love you's. complete 13th October 2009; prequel to drabble; Of secrets and dreams. posted on both
Will you love me when I'm gone? part one | part two to be added; written for [info]qaf_scavenger only on IJ currently
My drabbles at
[info]qaf_drabbles  complete Sept 30, October 1st, 7th and 13th 2009 Only on IJ

2010 Masterlist

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-06-27 17:17
Subject: &60
Security: Public
Tags:~ij; haitus tiemz, ~life; pride

HAITUS TIEMZ!
'cause shit, my laptop's adaptor power cord exploded. Like full on *BANG, YO*, *smoke* & *funky ass smell*

HAPPY PRIDE!
My Firefox is flying the flag and I'm wearing as many colours as possible. I really wish I had a flag though. D:

4-1
Germany deserved to win, they played as hard as they could and I'm truly happy for them. On the other hand, England, wtf?! I'm not sad they're knocked out. Maybe if they played their best, even once I would be. But I'm not. Do better next time lads.

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-06-24 04:22
Subject: &59 {SPN/SA; Misha Collins}
Security: Public
Mood:ecstatic ecstatic
Tags:~fandom; supernatural, ~omgggg teh ghey!

Oh. Just ohhh, Good oh, not bad oh.

I sat and watched Stonehenge Apocalypse (YES THE MOVIE WITH THE GAY ANGEL MISHA COLLINS) with my mother last night (it was late and I was cracked out from tired) And sometimes my mother comes out with the most brilliant, fantastic almost orgasmically funny things...

Really, what you have to understand is my mother is not a fangirl. But she should be.

Me: Heh! Looks like Misha is wearing lipgloss.
Mum: *Like yeah whatever* At least he matches his shirt.
^ THIS IS WHERE IT STARTED.

Me: *fangirls all over Misha, only trying to be non-obvs 'cause non-fangirl in the midst*
Mum: *Deadpan* I know you've got the lust for Misha Collins.
Me: *Facepalm*

Mum: I don't like those jeans.
Me: Er, why?
Mum: I don't.
Me:  *asks again 5 minutes later* If they were darker would you like them then? Why don't you like them?
Mum: *Srs face* They're gay.
Me: o_O *Iz ded* What? They're gay? Like independently gay from his body? OMMGGGG THE JEANS ARE GAYYY!

THEN, THENNNNNN, SHE IMPLIED THAT THE RING AROUND HIS NECK WAS A COCKRING.

This. THIS IS WHY MY SEXUALITY IS INVALID.

Don't even get me started on what she was saying about Castiel, the gay angel. He can be the gay angel until he has sex. Not because gay sex is bad but because he would FALL. Oh god. Woman, I'm so fucking proud to be your daughter.

Disclaimer: my mum loves teh ghey. At no point  was she being offensive, we were riffing and omggggg *iz ded*


BTW, the movie was crap. Like Misha's acting was the only really good part. We couldn't even tell who the British soldiers were and their accents were awful and I tell you, NO ONE has ever said, "My aunt fanny." And the US army guy looked like he was wearing a clock on his head.

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-06-18 07:07
Subject: #058 {As the World turns}
Security: Public
Mood:sick sick
Tags:~fandom; as the world turns, ~why the hell should i tag this?

I've gotten into daytime American soaps, or rather evening soaps, as it's transmitted to us at 7 o'clock. And it's one in particular; As the World Turns. Guys you didn't tell me that America has a gay sweetheart couple! Though I could use some earplugs when Emily Stewart character comes on screaming, Christ, my eardrums are gonna burst.

While the cheese factor goes way beyond my normal threshold and despite a legitimate use of the term 'baby' (Don't even. It still makes me gag a little.)  I'm kind of into it. I'm not into my supercouple being broken up. Also, the plot holes even in that one storyline are worse than swiss cheese and have gaps wider than continents.

Should I admit now or later that I have a cold and I'm open to brainwashing via mindless entertainment?

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-06-16 02:26
Subject: #057 {True Blood 3x01}
Security: Public
Mood:mellow mellow
Tags:~actor; alexander skarsgard, ~actress; anna paquin, ~fandom; true blood

I was all up to have a True Blood season 3 premiere discussion but after seeing Eric's [Alexander Skarsgard] ass, my points are invalid. Literally, nothing in my brain happened after that scene.

Though how Anna [Paquin] played that reaction in that scene was awesome; "Six hours? Really?" *is impressed*.

In terms of general feel, I have decent hopes for this season. There are only two things from the books (at this juncture) I want Alan Ball to stick to and if he can do that for me, I'll be a very very happy fan.

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-06-11 19:07
Subject: #056
Security: Public
Mood:pensive pensive
Tags:~why the hell should i tag this?

I have made a startling discover today all life's questions can be answered with one simple phrase, "I have a vagina." Anything bugging me today, doesn't matter because I have a vagina. Don't worry I've not gone crazy just vaguely aware this month of my PMS. Which I call PMS but if I talk about it, it's PMT. Because I'm not stressed about my period. I've been having them for 10 years, if I'm worried about it now, fuck me.

Though it does explain why my brain was so horrifyingly womanish yesterday. I was almost ashamed to have breasts I was so emotional. Then I wanted to make a joke about lesbionic things and I realised no one but you guys watch QAF.

Y'know I had that haircut. Then I remembered why I don't have my hair short. :P My hair curls up more than those curly french fries. Medusa would have taken one look and me and turned to stone. Straighteners I might add may just be more useful than food.

Before I forget --



To all the birthdays I've missed and the one's that are coming; [info]outlander , [info]brianslave68  and [info]florida_minxie .

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-06-09 15:29
Subject: #055
Security: Public
Mood:confused confused
Tags:~fandom; queer as folk, ~q; fandom

Can anyone remember if the psychologist from 2x02 has a name? First or last, I can't remember, I don't want to make one up and realise he had one to begin with!

Answered by the ever knowledgeable [info]qafmaniac. &hearts

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-06-07 21:28
Subject: #054
Security: Public
Mood:blah blah
Tags:!rewatch, ~irl; hair be awesome

My replacement season 5 DVD arrived today, all in perfect condition. Haven't had time to appreciate it yet because I had things to do, including a haircut!

To most people this isn't a particularly liberating experience but for me it was. I had thick brown waist length hair which was just so heavy on my head, worse so because of the hot weather. Hair is still brown, though the tips of my back layers (I have long layers in the back) still have the remnants of my highlighting escapade and it's layered to my chin at the front and beautifully... it only reaches my shoulders! :D

Off to see Sex and the City 2 with a girlfriend tomorrow but tonight I'm enjoying my boys on my TV. Anyone care to join me and watch an episode together?

ETA; Torchwood Season 4 is a go. It's been picked up by Starz who are working with the BBC to give the new series an 'international' feel. The new series will be 10 episodes in length.

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-06-06 02:48
Subject: #053 {15} 2x09 icons
Security: Public
Tags:!icons, ~fandom; queer as folk

I've been really busy this week so I didn't have as much time as I'd like to icon this week's episode. I'm getting back into the swing of iconning too which is why it was doubly frustrating. Anyway, here's some 2x09 icons.

{15} 2x09 icons.
+ 10 character icons.
+ 5 text/stock related QaF icons.

.snip. )

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-06-06 00:02
Subject: #052 {Gale in CSI: NY}
Security: Public
Mood:impressed impressed
Tags:~actor; gale harold, ~qaf actors; other projects

I've gotten into CSI: NY and watched a few with Mum lately. I don't like any of the others. The characters in them don't interest me. Anyway, I was super excited as I realised the one we were watching was Gale's ep. I was like OMG FAVE ACTOR ALERT. I got so tied up with Gale! ♥, when Mum asked me what his name was, it sort of came out like "Gale [intelligible sound, possibly Harld*]." But alas, Gale was barely in it!! Well, he was but he only had like one paragraph of lines at the end! It was a lot of perving at him through a window. Though out of personal preference I wish Gale's hair was shorter. (I've always been a fan of S1/2!Gale hair) And all one colour. It was still dyed from his play I think. Okay, enough perving on Gale...Oh wait, there's never enough Gale perving.

*I think when I tried to say his name my brain thought I was trying to say my own. (last names that is) They're not nearly the same, not dissimilar either.

What were everyone else's thoughts on Gale's performance in CSI:NY? I kind of like that Gale picks roles which are usually characters fighting for a cause, regardless of whether it's positive or negative.

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-06-04 19:20
Subject: #051 {QAF S5 DVD}
Security: Public
Mood:restless restless
Tags:!rewatch, ~cost has no meaning, ~fandom; queer as folk, ~purchase my soul

I received my QAF season 5 dvd only to have to send it back. D: It was damaged in transit and Amazon is already sending me a new one, and reimbursed me the cost of sending my one back. Should be here some time next week. Which is annoying because I wanted to watch 5x13 in DVD quality. And on my TV.

Until then I have super hot weather (27C = 80F?) and trainee guide dog puppies (tomorrow) to keep me busy.

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-06-02 16:00
Subject: #050 True Blood trailer & {1} drabble
Security: Public
Location:on my bed with my lappy on my desk.
Mood:stressed stressed
Tags:!writing, ~fandom; queer as folk, ~fandom; spoilers, ~fandom; true blood, ~pairing; brian/justin

NEW EXTENDED TRUE BLOOD TRAILER FOR SEASON 3; LINK

&

I played on Minxie's prompt generator, which is awesome btw, last night and ended up writing a drabble!

Title: Untitled
Author: [info]in_ahaze 
Fandom: Queer as Folk
Pairing: Brian/Justin.
Prompt: 100 word drabble, your favourite character, the consequences. *Timeline; late season 1*

For Brian there were no consequences. He fucked who he wanted to when he wanted to. Until that kid. That stupid, irrational, sometimes completely deluded kid. Justin romanticised and fantasised about the kind of man he thought Brian was, then who he wanted Brian to be.

Brian completely disregarded all of Justin’s shit and his issues… until he didn’t. Until the moment he realised he cared. Unable to turn back the clock, unable to forget what he knew. Brian for the first time in his life felt, acutely, the consequence for his actions.

Justin Taylor was the trick that never was.

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-06-01 23:07
Subject: #049
Security: Public
Mood:indescribable indescribable
Tags:!reading, !rewatch, ~book; every 9 seconds, ~fandom; queer as folk, ~fandom; true blood

Sorry for the double post today but I have to say, the Queer as Folk fandom has to be the most polite place when it comes to disagreements. I was expecting hell* but I got some very interesting, opposing of course, views different to my own. Again, another reason I love our fandom.

*come to the Smallville fandom where they try to get people fired.


I finished Every Nine Seconds, it wasn't a particularly long book and I'm a really fast reader. There was a bit where I thought I was going to have to write an angry letter. Basically at Brian and Michael's prom 'Save the Last Dance' was played and I swore that if Michael danced with Brian to this song I was going to... *shakes fist* He didn't [for reasons you may find out if you read it] but it was a lovely sort of nod to Brian and Justin I think. Brian not getting his proper prom dance until it was with the right person.

Oh and Trubies! Anyone interested in watching the Season 2 finale together before the Season 3 premiere on Sunday 13th?

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-06-01 14:29
Subject: #048
Security: Public
Mood:impressed impressed
Tags:!reading

My Queer as Folk original novel arrived today via airmail to my head. FFS, I really wish people wouldn't throw my mail at me. I can just as easily wake up and go down and get it myself. 'Cause tbh, if I ain't awake I don't want it do I?

I think that this one is the first one not the second one, from the time frame, it's while Michael and Brian are still at school and about to graduate. It's actually a pretty good read so far--


Hopefully my DVDs will come tomorrow. :)

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-05-31 22:40
Subject: #047 Thoughts on the CowLip interview & {1} wallpaper.
Security: Public
Mood:chipper chipper
Tags:!wallpaper, ~discussion, ~fandom; queer as folk, ~interwebs be awesome, ~my laptop; my true love, ~pairing; brian/justin

Just saw the interview! Love it! I think because I'm a fan after the show ended I feel more comfortable with the end. Though I still think that Brian went bananas from 5x10 till that scene in 5x13. (The one when they're finally honest) I thought he'd been body snatched and again honestly, I don't believe any crap he says in episodes until that scene. Their final scene gave me the 'I love you' that I needed, it gave me the real I love you the one that I could truly believe between the two of them.

As for the end, it's not an end, not really. I just always thought that Justin would go away to NY and he and Brian might see each other over whatever period of time it was until they could finally, truly be together.

Anyway! Left to my own devices, I needed a new wallpaper for my lappy and it's been awhile since I had a B/J one. I made one from 5x10 FOREVER ago, like when I was still watching the show for the first time, ago.

free image host
*1280x800
textless version; 1280x800
*Lyrics are from Black Rose by Trapt.

Completely shareable of course so if you need a different size, let me know. :)

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-05-30 06:05
Subject: #046 {12} 2x08 icons
Security: Public
Mood:groggy groggy
Tags:!icons, ~fandom; queer as folk

In honour of 2x08 I made some (and dug some out of the grave, probably) icons.

1-4
5-8
9-12

+ No hotlinking, is very bad as I still use assbucket, Photobucket.
+ credit [info]in_ahaze
+ Enjoy
*10 isn't a double, I just happened to really like that crop of Michael. :)

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-05-27 18:55
Subject: #045
Security: Public
Mood:cheerful cheerful
Tags:~discussion, ~fandom; queer as folk, ~irl, ~purchase my soul, ~thinky thoughts

Finally got to order my season 5 of QAF which means I'm no longer restricted to my computer or the quality of my downloads (which isn't bad JSYK) I just got so sick of saying no, I can't have it because of reason XY and Z.

I also ordered book #2 of the original novels for the show. I was given #1 and #3 as gifts and I've read #1 but held off on #3 in case there is anything that I need to know from #2. It's really interesting to see these burgeoning young people (in the first book, they're about to hit college) go through life knowing who they will become. Michael, my heart kind of aches for Michael and Brian... well, it's interesting to see a softer side of Brian. He's still Brian but I guess before he really knew what it meant to be 'Brian Kinney'.

Has anyone else read the original novels? Or did you hold off for a specific reason?

&

I'm working my way through season 3 again. I find the scene where Brian demands that Justin 'have some balls' really interesting. He says, "That is so like you, you don't hear want you want so you leave." Ergo, Brian refuses to admit he loves Justin so he left. Then he says, "Why don't you stand up for yourself for a change and have some balls." I always thought Brian let Justin off a little too easy, in that in a space of an episode they're back together, but watching this scene I get it. He's asking Justin to stand up for what he wants. When Justin kisses Brian, he's declaring that he wants Brian, in spite of everything and Brian accepts that.

Okay! That's enough retrospect today! See ya all later :)

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-05-26 21:30
Subject: #044 I can't believe that you were right in front of me.
Security: Public
Mood:busy busy
Tags:~fandom; queer as folk, ~fandom; true blood, ~irl, ~life oh life, ~pairing; brian/justin, ~thinky thoughts

Went to see Prince of Persia starring Jake Gyllenhaal (Fuck if I can find my Brokeback Mountain DVD) and once again, he never disappoints me. He was fantastic. Really, great solid story, blinding effects and non-stop awesomeness from start to finish. So, everyone please at least think of giving it a try?

Though it's shame some critics want to get on him because I think some of the producers made the Pirates of the Caribbean movies and when they look at him jacked up in a costume are expecting Captain Jack. My opinion: screw you, he looks hot and by God this will be the first movie I buy on Blu-Ray. Yes, I'm lame and don't have it yet but when I do...!

Then I went shopping, bought a ring because while I still have my special 'think of me God willing' ring, even I can't deny some ice. Bought essentials, socks, slippers, belt 'cause my jeans are currently progressing closer and closer to my knees. And some headphones for my iPod and a father's day card for next week.

I noticed that a few people on my F-list are Gleeks and Trubies some even SPNers! Strange how we all loved one show and we all seem to gravitate towards to these shows as well.

Oh yeah! I also watched Queer as Folk UK in my absence and thank god we have Gale and Randy. US TV is a helluva lot more polished. It really was like men from Manchester who like to fuck. Great... for them. For me, I watch TV to get away from my reality. Plus, I'm a London girl. *Gestures* Accents.

One thing though that annoys me when people talk about the characters of Nathan and Justin. Specifically the age difference. They say it's more daring that Nathan come out at 15 than Justin at 17. The answer, my beloved friends, is simple. The age of sexual consent here, which btw is 16, is lower. That's all.

Okay, now I'm done. Laters. :)

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-05-26 00:36
Subject: #43 [Picspam] QAF 2x02 [Song rec]
Security: Public
Mood:pensive pensive
Tags:~fandom; queer as folk, ~helping is good, ~interwebs be awesome, ~music be the song of love, ~pairing; brian/justin, ~tv rocks my world

So, I have no idea what the heck the Sunshine challenge is about other than what I've seen on my F-list but still, I'm giving it ago.



Brian: You walked down with me, back to the Jeep, and we were goofing, we were dancing.
I kissed you, said 'later.'
And then you turned around and smiled.
Then I knew why Debbie calls you Sunshine.
Episode 2x02.

screencaps from coppermine.

Bleurgh, not my best colouring but for some reason QAF caps always come up worse. *headdesk* IDK why. D: Oh well, I'll try something different next time then.

And this song My Wish by Rascal Flats reminds me of post-5x13 Brian/Justin. A bit 'sappy' but that's okay sometimes.

.lyrics. )

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~ a written haze ~
Date: 2010-05-24 14:01
Subject: #42 in a book, in a box in a closet... in a breathe inside a whisper... the words I couldn't say.
Security: Public
Location:on my bed with my lappy on my desk.
Mood:busy busy
Music:words I couldn't say - Rascall Flats.

Thing about English people, we hate the rain, we complain about the rain. But generally there isn't actually a lot of rain. It's just bloody cold. But this is Day 2 of the warmest weather we've had this year and I'm so over it. Then again it could be because I don't have a high tolerance for heat. Meh.

Though I'm still enjoying my shorts while I can and my SPF factor 8 (I know! I was freaking out too! 25 and above please) has some sort of 'shine' formula and I looked like Em getting ready for a night a Babylon. Naturally I thought of you guys.

&

Might cross post to this to some comms to get a discussion going IDK though I don't want to rile anyone up... the topic; Brian and Justin's S2 break-up. We all chose sides whether we meant to or not, and a fair few of us ended up on Team Brian because we knew the truth. We knew how much Brian loved Justin.

But I'm watching these episodes again to try and understand Justin's side. I mean it's obvious that he leaves because he craved the acknowledgement he was getting from Ethan that Brian wouldn't give him. He just wanted a little proof that he is important to Brian. I also think Justin often misinterprets Brian (i.e. the rules and why Brian was agreeing to them) but that could be my imagination because we all get both sides of the story.
So! Team Brian or Team Justin, use both sides and discuss!

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